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an interrupted life

I don’t like being interrupted. I guess, who really does?

I’ve been noticing lately, God likes to work that way, though. Interrupting my life. Sending shockwaves when I least expect it. Putting something in my path that I don’t necessarily even want. Pushing me out of my comfort zone.

I remember very distinctly a phone call I received from my father that has forever interrupted my life. My dad traveled to Haiti for the first time in February 2009. He was excited and the trip had him all pumped up about Haiti. At the time, I was a freshman in college, being true to freshman college ways. I loved where I was, my new friends and everything the college experience was about.

The day my dad called me when he returned from Haiti, I was studying for a big midterm in the student union on campus and to be quite honest, didn’t really care much about his trip. I gave him a few minutes to talk before cutting him off and saying I needed to go, but the conversation ended with him announcing that the whole family was going to go to Haiti that summer, June 2009.

“Whatever dad,” I thought in my mind.

I think you get it, though, we went on that trip and it ruined me. That phone call was the beginning moments of God interrupting my life. The rest is history.

God has interrupted my life many more times since that phone call. He did it just the other week and today I realized that my life will yet forever be changed again because of it.

I was walking through the plantain garden of Simonette headed to Tytoo. The walk is an adventure all of its own, skipping over mud puddles and ducking around trees. I like the walk. Makes me feel more Haitian!

On this particular day, I was walking and had a million and one things on my mind and was in another world. I was stopped in my tracks and someone yelled my name from behind me. So, I snapped back to reality and turned around to find a middle-aged woman short of breath. She had something urgent to tell me and she had my attention as we stood in the hot Haitian sun among the plantain trees.

She told me of her niece: an eight-year-old who couldn’t walk. She pleaded, “Will you just take her?” (always a scary request) I was caught off guard. I said before I could commit to anything I needed to meet this little girl. I was willing right there in that moment to go and meet her. Of course the little girl didn’t live around Simonette, so mom and child needed to travel here.

Regardless of how the conversation ended, this woman hadn’t just interrupted my walk through the garden, God was interrupting my life, even though I had yet to realize it.

Today I finally met Miss Amelisa. Within moments my heart melted.

Three years ago Amelisa and her family’s lives were shaken to the core by the earthquake. Their house crumbled to the ground and both mom and dad were caught in the rubble. The father suffered severe head injuries and left the family. Mom suffers from trauma and hasn’t been mentally stable or healthy since. Little Amelisa survived, but has suffered from a severe bone disease since birth. Her legs are brittle; her arm bones bow out in all directions and her back hunches over quite drastically. She can’t walk or run around like a normal child, but her spirit, seriously her spirit, will make you believe in miracles.

When you ask Amelisa how you can help her, she doesn’t ask for a new body, medicine or help. She says, “I just want to go to school!”

So, trying to make this request possible, I offered mom a job at the school. To show how unstable she is, she said she can’t work with children nor wash dishes in the kitchen. She told me she needs to go to the hospital. Which hospital? The psychiatric hospital. It didn’t seem right at first, but the mom really is in poor conditions. Our conversation was long, filled with way too much adult talk, and Amelisa just sat there patiently with a smile on her face. I stopped the conversation, not thinking the child needed to hear adults talk about details about her and asked her again, “What do you want?”

“I want to stay and go to school!”

Well okay then, school it is!!

We got her a uniform, introduced her to the school pet goat, showed her which classroom she would be in and got her a new backpack. An hour later, after figuring out the rest of the details, Amelisa was admitted into Tytoo’s rescue program. She will be living there until mom returns from the hospital, with a job still waiting for her at the school if she chooses. Her aunt, who interrupted my walk a week ago, will also be working at the school as an aid and to help her get around.

She proudly counted to 10 and showed how she can write, so she’s going to start in first grade. My friend Gerard said, “I want her to go to school because I think she’s going to be the smartest student!”

Gerard is also going to make her a special table fit just for her and our hopes are to find her a wheelchair. Another idea Esther had was to find her an iPad or tablet to allow her to learn with different apps, since her hands do work so well considering her disease. She played around on Esther’s this morning and loved it! If you have an iPad lying around (I know people usually don’t, but just saying…), consider giving it to Amelisa!

I’m so excited for tomorrow, not just because opening day of school with over 900 children will full of excitement, but because I’m going to be able to watch Amelisa’s dreams come true tomorrow.

As my best friend from back home wrote me last night, “It makes it worth it, ya know,” it does…it truly does.

I thank God for interrupting my life and allowing me to tell incredible stories like these.

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And you can be a part of it all, too! Sponsor a child through Touch of Hope for this school year and allow God to interrupt your life through providing hope to these young lives.

(See the Touch of Hope link above to get started on your sponsorship today.)

little things

Cream cheese.
Cinnamon raisin bagel.
Morning prayer holding hands at ViBella.
Necklaces, lots of necklaces.
Wrapping wire and cutting chain.
Fried plantains with my favorite red sauce.
Walking through plantain field.
Hugs from an old lady.
New friends.
Old friends.
Emails.
Planning.
Haitians knowing all the words to the titanic theme song.
An air conditioned vehicle.
Fresh bananas.
Soccer.
Having good tennis shoes.
Running around with children.
“Simon says” in another language.
Dum-dum suckers.
High-fives.
Dirty feet.
Ice cold water.
Loveson’s practical jokes.
Supper with fiance.
Showers.
Clean feet.
Belly laughter.
Baby girl falling asleep on my chest.
A comfy bed.
A cool fan.
More ice cold water.
The sound of the ocean waves.

It’s the little things that make this life beautiful.

it just might be alright

It’s been a while since I have written, so hello there, hope you didn’t miss me too much!

Last month I traveled home for two weeks to get to work on all the wedding details. Webert and I are getting married January 4, 2014 here in Haiti and we are very excited, my mom however is probably more excited. My trip home was nothing short of wedding madness, as mom and I got nearly everything bought and planned for the big day in two short weeks. Now here’s to just waiting until our date!

Luckily though, we are staying very busy and don’t have much time to sit around thinking about our big day. Vi Bella just launched all of their fall designs this past Monday

It’s actually a must that you go and check them out: www.vibellajewelry.com

So, we have been very busy at our center getting all of the fall designs finished and back to the states.

As for the school, we spent the month of July registering all of the kids and taking in new students. Our census is now around 900 children! Some people shake their heads at this number, but we are excited.

We are adding ninth grade this year and have 45 new preschool 1 students. We also had 45 sixth grade students go to national exams this summer…for those of you who don’t know what this means, after sixth, ninth and twelfth grade, students in Haiti are required to go to a national exam and if they pass they are then nationally recognized as a graduate from that grade. I have learned quickly that you do not take these exams lightly. The students actually spent a month in summer school for extra preparation before going to the exams. I’m happy to announce though that out of the 45 students, all but 5 passed, which we saw as a huge success! Adding a ninth grade classroom will now mean that we will have two grades preparing for national exams this coming year.

Another addition happening this year is morning and afternoon sessions. Morning classes will be more traditional and afternoon classes are for students who are further behind and non-traditional. For example, the 15-year-olds who are still in second grade will be attending afternoon classes. Students who failed this pass school year will also be in the afternoon classes. This will also make our staff members more full-time and will create more opportunities for employment.

Over the summer we have repainted all the buildings, which brightened the place up! We are also building a basketball court and a cool hangout gazebo for the kids. Truly, I love the atmosphere of our mountaintop and can’t for classes to start again! I miss rice and beans for lunch everyday and playing tag at noontime with the kids.

As for my kids, I’m ready for them to be back in school. Jeffte and Loveson have spent their summer days playing at Tytoo orphanage or in the village, but I think they’re ready to be back in school too. Jeffte will be in first grade with a new yellow and grey uniform and Loveson will be in the Preschool 3 classroom.

Miss Wishla, our newest addition, has been spending her days with Webert’s sister, Pascal, while I work at ViBella. She lives right across from where I work, so it’s nice having her close by but being able to work without having to worry about her. Pascal has been starting to feed her and of course her favorite food is rice and beans, what a typical Haitian child.

Yesterday we had her monthly appointment at the AIDS hospital and the doctor is amazed at how well she is doing so we praise God for that! She will forever be on AIDS and preventive tuberculosis medication and at this point will always have to be seen at the hospital once a month. I have always hated taking medicine and have never been good at taking it regularly when I’ve had to, so it’s been an adjustment but we are on a good schedule and medication will have to become a norm for us.

The amazing transformation that has happened to her in this short period of time still astounds me. I make the medication sound like a bunch of work, but she has already brought so much joy to our family that it’s a minor detail. The boys love playing with her and helping me give her bottles. And at the end of the day, when I’m putting her to sleep with a bottle and my eyes are falling asleep quicker than hers, it just feels right being her mom.

A month ago I doubted myself and God, not thinking I was capable of caring for this baby, but somehow it just works. And I’ve begun noticing this pattern on this journey of mine. Whenever I’m worrying and doubting the circumstances and happenings in my life, things seem complicated and way too hard. But when I begin to trust in God and see it as His plans and His workings, things seem to work out okay.

There really is no logical reason on this planet as to why I’m a mother of three children who have all overcome malnutrition, severe sickness and awful living conditions and watched them come through to the other side. There’s no explanation as to why we are administrating a school with 900 children nor can I give a good response to all the people who need help. I guess as a result the only reason, explanation and response I can give is that we are to praise God. Give him the glory. Trust in Him.

To trust in His calling. His plans. His whispers. And the desires He puts on our hearts.

Well I started this blog just to give an update, but things just got kind of deep there. But, I guess things right now things seem chaotic but yet they feel just right. That’s not to say I haven’t cried too much this week, out of both frustration and joy. Or that I don’t have the slightest clue as to what I’m suppose to do next for some people I want to help…. but when the end of the day comes, the babies fall asleep and the fan hums in the background I somehow fall asleep feeling like everything will be alright.

At this time, I would like to tell you about my new friend Philippe also. I first knew Philippe only as the “bead guy” because him and his wife make these fancy and unique coin purses with small seed beads and sequins. After learning about his art, we found a way to take his talents and incorporate them into a few ViBella fall pieces (Germina, Lenska, Phillipa or Yolanda are all necklaces on ViBella’s website that feature his and his wife’s work). Seed by seed, they intricately sew these medallions and I can’t help but be captivated by the amount of work that goes into each piece.  They are also the first artists I have been able to hire, working on a part-time contract, with ViBella that use their own unique talents. It’s been a wonderful experience to take artists straight from the village and give them an opportunity to become involved with our ministry.

However, behind the beautiful art, there isn’t much left for them to show. Philippe, his wife and two daughters live up in the hillsides of Source Matelas in a small house made of assorted plywood containing nothing but a dirt floor, small table and a sunken bed. It is mind boggling how such beauty and craft can rise out of living situations such as these. But there is pride no doubt in their work.

Last Monday, I went to visit them in their house to pick up some final medallions and for him to sign the contract saying all the work was finished. As I was walking away, Philippe followed me with an envelope in hand. Inside the envelope I found a small New Testament bible written in Creole and a hand written note. He explained to me that the three most important things in his life were God’s word, his family and his art. The last line in the letter said, “thank you so much for this job you gave me, now there is always food in my house for my wife and kids.”

That line brought me so much joy. One of those little things that make me think everything is going to be alright when I lay my head down to sleep at night.

So, why am I telling you all of this? Well because the newest burning desire on my heart is for us to build him a new home. A real house, one with a concrete floor, a sturdy table, maybe a new bed that doesn’t rise off the dirt and with a big new porch for them to sit on and create their beautiful art for years to come.

 

Want to donate to Philippe’s new home?

Send your donation to:

Touch of Hope, Haiti

205 Old Mill Lane

Rock Rapids, IA 51246

*remember that Touch of Hope is a recognized 501(3)c non-profit organization!

Also support his work and all the other ViBella artists’ work by shopping at http://www.vibellajewelry.com

Be blessed.

Love from Haiti.

 

 

meet Wishla: Part II

Two weeks ago I wrote about a little girl who was admitted into Tytoo’s rescue program: Wishla, an 8-pound, 11-month old miracle baby. We have learned lots more about her in the past few weeks, but the Lord has been working in my heart a lot more.

We have learned that Wishla’s young mother had been neglecting her for the past 11 months of her short life. We learned her grandma was trying her hardest to take care of the babe, but she was also trying to provide food for her own family by serving food to workers at a local factory. We also learned Wishla is very sick. She is severely malnourished and is also HIV positive.

Three days before learning this, on a Sunday morning in church, I found myself weeping over the life of this child. I couldn’t figure out why I was crying and being moved so strongly. I knew God was calling me to take her in as my own, but I fought back with all of my human excuses: I was too busy, I am newly engaged, I need to plan a wedding, I have two kids of my own…my list went on and on as I tossed and turned at night not being able to sleep.

I cried as I told Webert what was happening in my heart. He said “no way” and I agreed. I felt like a crazy person thinking that I should take in this child. As I continued to cry and become more convinced over the days, Webert was still not so sure about the idea, but he told me that if this was truly on my heart he couldn’t hold me back from doing it.

But, I continued to argue with God. One night I was struggling with God because I didn’t know why He would lay this on my heart and make me feel so strongly towards this child, but not allow the same thing to happen to Webert. But, God responded…typical.

I’m reading a book called Unfinished by Richard Stearns, a sequel to his first book The Hole in the Gospel. I highly recommend both books!

As I was struggling and arguing this is how He spoke to me through the words in Unfinished:

“We are saved by faith, and we are saved for works. And God himself has prepared specific people for specific good works. He chooses us for a mission, and he chooses a mission for us.”

Ok. He’s chosen Wishla for me. He’s chosen her as my mission. I hear you, Lord.

The next page contained these three Bible verses:

“If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person? Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but in actions and in truth.” (1 John 3:17-18)

Let my love be shown in actions. Let my actions be obedient. I will take care of Wishla. I hear you, Lord.

“What good it is, my brothers and sisters, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such a faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, ‘God, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed,’ but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead” (James 2:14-17)

Let my faith not be dead. Let my heart not be callused. I will try to be faithful with your calling, Lord.

“Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for.” (Matthew 25:40)

Of course, my family’s theme verse since starting to serve in Haiti. The verse my little brother, Matthew, is named after. I hear you, Lord.

So, Wishla came over for her first sleepover last week and has been with us since. And we have seen her come to life. The new medications are surely making a difference and she is eating more and more each day. She’s truly a fighter, a survivor. As she bounces up and down, giving us a huge smile, I can’t help but feel like this is right. Jeffte and Loveson love loving on her, helping give her baths and giving her lots of kisses. I continue to see her melt Webert’s heart with her smile.

Please continue to pray for her health. She will be celebrating her first birthday August 4th and will be returning back to the doctor on August 9th.  Pray for my family as it continues to grow.

And the words from my mother, “we will have her healthy in time for the wedding to be the perfect flower girl.”

 

Love from Haiti.

We can’t do it alone

This is it…the blog where I ask for things. Take a deep breath with me and understand that we are working very hard here, we just need some help to accomplish some things that need to be done. We have spent the last few days discussing our biggest needs and praying about them. Today, we have them all written out and we want to be as transparent as possible as we tell you all about them.

#1 – Improve the care for our babies. We currently have 4 babies in the orphanage, but two with us temporarily. We want to improve the baby area as soon as possible since we have been seeing lots of sick babies come to the gate, who are high maintenance, sick and special needs. The improvements we want seen done are tiling the room, having a sink installed, building a cemented & enclosed playground area, buying climbing equipment and installing two safety gates. We expect the total costs for complete improvement on the baby area to be $3,500

 

#2 – Right now all of the other children live out of suitcases or a community pile of clothes. We want to buy lockers for each child as an opportunity to teach them ownership, responsibility and give them a sense of identity. We need to buy 6 locker systems for $500 each, total of $3,000

 

#3 – We are feeding the children three times a day but the diet is very basic. We would like to increase the food budget $1,000 a month to be able to add fruit and more meat.

 

#4 – To continue to improve child care we need 2 more nannies, 2 part time staff and one more full time cook. Adding a total of $500 a month to the budget to be able to pay their salaries.

 

#5 – Some of the children need new beds and to give them new mattresses and have some new bunk beds built we need a total of $1,200

#6 – There are other property improvements to be made, for example some of the children’s rooms need new screens installed on the windows and doors, we expect $2,000 to make these improvements.

#7 – Lastly, Tytoo needs an office space to be able to keep up with the bookwork. We have the space prepared, but need the supplies (new desk, filing cabinet, etc) asking for $800 to finish the office.

 

Ughh…you can take a breath out now! We realize this is a lot and it’s hard asking for this much money, but it is our needs. We hope you can are called led to help us.

Please send donations to
205 Old Mill Lane
Rock Rapids, Iowa 51246

Made to Touch of Hope and add memos if there is something specific you want to give to!

Bondye beni ou (God bless you)

And a deep thanks from all of us here working for Touch of Hope and Tytoo Gardens for your prayers and support.

What I Believe

Lots of things are happening down here and life seems a little out of control. Lots of changes are taking place and lots of things need to happen. I send up lots of prayers through my day, but most of the time they sound more or less like a plead for help.

Most of all, a lot of the decisions we are making both at the school and at the orphanage involve lives and that’s where things get hard. I have a hard time believing how God trusts me enough to make these decisions. I have a hard time trying to figure out why he would give me so much to handle. But, we are handling it all one day at a time.

Yesterday afternoon, exhausted, Esther (wife of Frank King and an amazing woman who is running Tytoo Gardens orphanage), Taunya (new member of our team at Tytoo who moved here last month and will be in charge of the children’s care at Tytoo) and myself were sitting in the clinic after a full day of school registration, clinic, errand running, child care and sick babies. We were talking out some of our frustrations and discussing some things that need to happen. We are not afraid to admit that over the course of the past 6 months to a year the care for the children has gotten lack. It is time for new schedules, new equipment, new mommies and new training. All things that take time and money. So, we are in the process of making these changes…

But in the meantime, we have admitted Wishla (baby girl I wrote about in my previous blog); we have been monitoring a set of newborn twins who are struggling to survive; we have admitted a 15-year-old malnourished, pregnant and orphaned girl; we have handed out boxes and boxes of convoy to hungry people; we have turned multiple other children away who are trying to be “dropped off” by their caretakers; and as human beings we have had our weak moments, broken down and cried. We are trying our hardest.

Every time I pull up to Tytoo’s gates there are almost always people sitting outside looking for something or waiting to be seen. Esther and Frank are amazing people, who deal with the unexpected 24/7 and are forced to make hard decisions all the time.

When I started my blog I never expected it to be a place where I ask for money, but it seems as though it has become an outlet for me to reach out to all my followers for just that. And, just so you all know, you have always risen to the occasion and amazed me and blessed me with your support and gifts. But, before I rattle off all our needs and all the things we have said “if only we had money to do that” I want to share with you What I Believe in first.

I want you to know my thought process, my desires for the people I serve and my viewpoint of money. So, here it is…

– First and foremost, I believe in God. I believe I have been saved through Jesus Christ’s death, that He rose on the third day and through Him I will be able to receive eternal life.

– I believe being a Christian requires sacrifice. I believe loving people requires sacrifice. I believe God has called me to serve in Haiti and love the Haitian people.

– I believe in the power of prayer.

– I believe in the people of Haiti. Take away logistics, illiteracy and poverty and you will find kind hearted people. Funny people. Strong and courageous people. People with dreams. I believe in their dreams.

– I believe educating children is the only way this country will see real change. I believe in Touch of Hope’s sponsorship program because it allows us to educate over 700 children (and who knows how many more hundreds in the years to come).

– I believe employing people is the only effective way to truly change families and lives. I do not believe in hand outs, but I do believe in gifts, when done with purpose and order.

– I believe in Vi Bella and creating beautiful lives by employing and empowering people with a job and new trade. I believe in my artists.

– I believe in Tytoo Gardens Children’s Foundation. I believe in all of our outreach programs. I believe in Esther and Frank. I believe that over time our community will see true change by what we are doing.

– I believe in the power of my blog. I only try to write when I feel like the Holy Spirit has placed something on my heart. I hope this blog can challenge people who are stuck in our mundane American culture. I hope this blog raises awareness for the poor and needy. I hope the Holy Spirit can speak through my words to you and challenge you to help me and the people I serve. I believe in you.

– Lastly, I believe in money (as shallow as that sounds). I believe when followers put their minds and hearts together to do something for the glory of God, money can impact so many lives. I believe there is power in giving. I have seen first hand how gifts can impact lives. With every donation, I believe lives can be changed.

So, that’s it. That’s my heart in a nutshell, even though most days it is a lot more complicated than a bulleted list of beliefs. In the days to come I am going to be writing some of our needs and things we need to fundraise for.

In the meantime will you just prayer for us?

To be continued…

What I Believe

Lots of things of things are happening down here and life seems a little out of control. Lots of changes are taking place and lots of things need to happen. I send up lots of prayers through my day, but most of the time they sound more or less like a plead for help.

Most of all, a lot of the decisions we are making both at the school and at the orphanage involve lives and that’s where things get hard. I have a hard time believing how God trusts me enough to make these decisions. I have a hard time trying to figure out why he would give me so much to handle. But, we are handling it all one day at a time.

Yesterday afternoon, exhausted, Esther (wife of Frank King and an amazing woman who is running Tytoo Gardens orphanage), Taunya (new member of our team at Tytoo who moved here last month and will be in charge of the children’s care at Tytoo) and myself were sitting in the clinic after a full day of school registration, clinic, errand running, child care and sick babies. We were talking out some of our frustrations and discussing some things that need to happen. We are not afraid to admit that over the course of the past 6 months to a year the care for the children has gotten lack. It is time for new schedules, new equipment, new mommies and new training. All things that take time and money. So, we are in the process of making these changes…

But in the meantime, we have admitted Wishla (baby girl I wrote about in my previous blog); we have been monitoring a set of newborn twins who are struggling to survive; we have admitted a 15-year-old malnourished, pregnant and orphaned girl; we have handed out boxes and boxes of convoy to hungry people; we have turned multiple other children away who are trying to be “dropped off” by their caretakers; and as human beings we have had our weak moments, broken down and cried. We are trying our hardest.

Every time I pull up to Tytoo’s gates there are almost always people sitting outside looking for something or waiting to be seen. Esther and Frank are amazing people, who deal with the unexpected 24/7 and are forced to make hard decisions all the time.

When I started my blog I never expected it to be a place where I ask for money, but it seems as though it has become an outlet for me to reach out to all my followers for just that. And, just so you all know, you have always risen to the occasion and amazed me and blessed me with your support and gifts. But, before I rattle off all our needs and all the things we have said “if only we had money to do that” I want to share with you What I Believe in first.

I want you to know my thought process, my desires for the people I serve and my viewpoint of money. So, here it is…

– First and foremost, I believe in God. I believe I have been saved through Jesus Christ’s death, that He rose on the third day and through Him I will be able to receive eternal life.

– I believe being a Christian requires sacrifice. I believe loving people requires sacrifice. I believe God has called me to serve in Haiti and love the Haitian people.

– I believe in the power of prayer.

– I believe in the people of Haiti. Take away logistics, illiteracy and poverty and you will find kind hearted people. Funny people. Strong and courageous people. People with dreams. I believe in their dreams.

– I believe educating children is the only way this country will see real change. I believe in Touch of Hope’s sponsorship program because it allows us to educate over 700 children (and who knows how many more hundreds in the years to come).

– I believe employing people is the only effective way to truly change families and lives. I do no believe in hand outs, but I do believe in gifts, when done with purpose and order.

– I believe in Vi Bella and creating beautiful lives by employing and empowering people with a job and new trade. I believe in my artists.

– I believe in Tytoo Gardens Children’s Foundation. I believe in all of our outreach programs. I believe in Esther and Frank. I believe that over time our community will see true change by what we are doing.

– I believe in the power of my blog. I only try to write when I feel like the Holy Spirit has placed something on my heart. I hope this blog can challenge people who are stuck in our mundane American culture. I hope this blog raises awareness for the poor and needy. I hope the Holy Spirit can speak through my words to you and challenge you to help me and the people I serve. I believe in you.

– Lastly, I believe in money (as shallow as that sounds). I believe when followers put their minds and hearts together to do something for the glory of God, money can impact so many lives. I believe there is power in giving. I have seen first hand how gifts can impact lives. With every donation, I believe lives can be changed.

So, that’s it. That’s my heart in a nutshell, even though most days it is a lot more complicated than a bulleted list of beliefs. In the days to come I am going to be writing some of our needs and things we need to fundraise for.

In the meantime will you just prayer for us?

To be continued…

meet Wishla

One of the greatest, yet scariest, things about life in Haiti is never knowing what can happen in your day. I am never surprised when my day is interrupted by women in labor, kids who need stitches, or random cattle making a road block on our one way road. Events that can make you laugh, be nervous, cry and rely solely on the power of prayer.

Today was a normal, busy day. We officially have 115 children registered in school after two days of registering. I’ve met an orphaned 16-year-old girl that sported no smile. Another 10-year-old being raised by her sister. Lots of moms telling their stories of raising 4, 5, 6, and 7 children in tents and small homes made of cement.

We take it all in. Find their number. Have them assessed. And go forward.

I wrapped up my busy day at Vi Bella and went to Tytoo afterwards and as I jumped out of the vehicle, Esther was yelling for me to come upstairs.

Meet Wishla.

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I found Miss Wishla as I walked onto Esther’s porch this afternoon.

14-month-old Wishla weighs in at 8 pounds and shows signs of severe malnourishment and protein deficiency. Her belly protrudes showing symptoms of worms but her ribs are showing as she breathes in and out.

Both Wishla and her mother are Tuberculosis survivors and mom is HIV positive. We will be doing further testing on the babe to see if she is positive also. She looks like a newborn, but shows signs of strength, life and joy.

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We have admitted Wishla into the Rescue program at Tytoo. The Rescue program is in place to take in children who are severely sick and weak, just like Wishla. Unfortunately our funds for this program are not abundant and tonight I want to give all of you an opportunity to help save a life and possible many more lives in the future.

Children in these types of circumstances are fragile and require special attention, medicine and treatment. We are committed to helping children such as these, but our fear is having to turn them away if funds are not in place.

Tonight as I worshiped in church and came face to face with our Creator I was sweaty, exhausted and dirty. My feet were covered in dirt and I was embarrassed I hadn’t washed my feet before church, but the image that came to mind was Him washing me clean. And washing Wishla clean of her illnesses and giving her new life.

New hope.

Help us provide hope to Wishla by donating to Touch of Hope today and allowing our dreams of a Rescue program come true.

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a surprised ending!

Yesterday was the celebration to mark the end of our school year, it was quite the year, but we survived it!

We celebrated by having a large preschool graduation celebration at my house. Over 300 people gathered in our yard to Watch our 52 Preschool 3 students graduate. Our Preschool 2 students also celebrated. Everyone had special outfits made, Preschool 3 dressed in light blue and Preschool 2 in yellow.

Loveson chowing down after the festivities

Loveson chowing down after the festivities

I'm a proud mama!

I’m a proud mama!

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Webert had informed me the night before that I was to be the god mother for the event (it is custom in Haiti to have a god mother and god father for an event such as this)

I was mentally preparing to give a nice little talk to encorage the parents to believe in their childrens’ dreams even at the Young ages of 3, 4 and 5. So, when Webert called me to the stage I was ready, but he had something else in mind! And around the corner out walked a line of preschoolers holding signs that spelt out “WILL YOU MARRY ME?” Jeffte led the line, carrying the “W” and Loveson held up the rear with the “?” mark! I cried like a baby!

Jeffte handing me the first letter

Jeffte handing me the first letter

Needless to say, I was surprised, shaky and crying like a baby! It was an incredible way to end the school year and an awesome way to involve our students, parents, friends and community! So, I guess let the wedding planning begin!

I just wanted to say a special thank you to my awesome sister and best friend, Megan, for helping Webert pull it off. And to my new friend Karri Mars for capturing all of the moments!

change of perspective

I’ve just returned back to Haiti after a two-week trip back to Iowa. I got to watch my baby brother graduate from high school, see my best friends, visit with family and indulge on all my favorite American treats. But, I have also been reflecting a lot on the past year of my life.

 

One entire year of being a full-time missionary, mom, manager and minority in a country full of chocolate colored people, poverty and challenges has already passed.

 

One of the hardest questions I am always asked is “How long do you plan on staying in Haiti?” This question usually comes from a stranger or someone who doesn’t know I’m in love with a Haitian and am raising two children. While I was home, I was interviewed for a news story done on Vi Bella. The lady who covered the story asked me this exact question. I blushed as I told her I was dating a Haitian and may end up spending the rest of my life here, I quickly told her to not put that part on the news though!

 

Truth is, I don’t know how long I will end up being here. Truth is, I also have no idea about anything anymore. I use to have such a defined perspective of the world we live in. Truth is, my perspective on things has changed in the past year.

 

As many of you have followed my journey this past year, you’ve read about many of the challenges I have faced and the hard issues I have addressed. I was so sure of what I was doing a year ago, but now I find myself in a whirlwind not knowing how I will ever be able to help all the people who need the help.

 

This past Thursday, I was sitting at my gate in Chicago after just receiving news that our flight had been delayed 3 hours and as a result I was going to miss my connecting flight to Port-au-Prince, which would mean I would be spending the night by myself in a hotel instead of with my boys. I was bummed, but not as crabby as some of the other travelers. I have yet to understand why some people have to act like such idiots in situations where the weather and mechanical issues are nothing we can control or change.

 

But, then there was a small girl, probably 2-years-old, who was being held by her mom. She pointed out the window over her mom’s shoulders and asked her, “What’s that big tower for? Is that a castle?”

 

The mom responded, “No, that’s where the good guys work, they are going to find us a new plane since our plane isn’t working.”

 

And, she believed it. That response was good enough and she was content to sit at Gate K18 until the good guys found us a new plane.

 

I wished in that moment that I could have the capability to have the contentment of a child. I wish my mom could point out the “towers” and show me where the good guys are in this world.

My perspective of the world has drastically changed over the past year. At the age of 23, I have learned there aren’t any magical towers with “good guys” and magical wishes. I have learned that if we want to live in a better world, it takes a lot of hard work. I have learned that the people I want to help the most are even willing to take advantage of me in the process. I have learned that more people are capable of making the world a better place but they are so blinded by our materialistic, cosmetic and fake society they don’t know any better.

 

The perspective I have on the world has become harsh and ragged. I travel home to designer name brands and luxury items. I travel back to a place that most people in the world will never experience, let alone imagine. I travel back with a pit in my stomach as I try to digest our society in America all over again. I just don’t get why we get to have so much and they only get so little.

 

My favorite restaurant to go to is Granite City and my favorite people to go with are my two best friends from high school. The night before I traveled back to Haiti, I found myself eating my favorite waffle fries with Granite City dip and laughing with my two friends. I thought to myself how I only wished I could have a girls’ night like that at least once a month, just a night to relax.

 

But as I paid my $16.00 bill, I thought of the boy who needed new tennis shoes to go to school and the mom who was struggling to feed to her baby. Their faces and names are real to me; they’re not just another number or statistic. They’re not another face in the crowd to me and they could have used that $16.00 more than I needed those French fries.

 

My two friends paid their bills, too, without a glance and I realized how I will never be “normal” again. These faces flash through my mind and my perspective of the world changes again.

 

If only we could take our blindfolds off. If only we could hear the truth in poverty and not continue to just read the headlines of “Haiti, poorest country in the western hemisphere.” Haiti is so much more than that statement, but that is what we have belittled it to be.

 

My perspective of the world has changed. My dreams aren’t full of “me” anymore, but full of ways for how to make the world just a little better. My desire is for those of you privileged enough to read this – I say privileged not because I’m a good writer and you should feel so because you’re reading my work, but because I consider you privileged by the smart phone you are holding in your hand, or the lab top that is comfortably positioned on your lap or the nice leather desk chair you find yourself seated on with the desktop in front of you. You’re privileged because you have access to clean water, quality education, dependable hospitals, fast speed Internet, comfortable chairs, French fries, etc, etc, etc, etc….. Consider yourself privileged if you can afford to spend $16.00 on meal without thinking twice.

 

I think that if we were able, for even one minute, to remove the blindfolds our society has blinded us with, the perspectives of our worlds would drastically change. If we could only begin to see the ones who are truly struggling and be willing to listen to the oppressed, we could see a change in our world. If our priorities switched from who has the biggest house on the block to helping those living on dirt floors, we could see a change in our world. If we skipped eating out one meal a month to sponsor a child in school, we could see a change in our world.

 

If only.

 

Some days I wish I could still see the world the way I did when I was 19-years-old, before I was ever exposed to true poverty. I sometimes wish I wasn’t bold enough to fight for the people who I do, but then I realize that that would be pretty selfish of me.

 

And, I think it is pretty selfish of our society to not allow our blindfolds to be taken off. I dare you to take yours off, it may be scary and I can almost guarantee you that you won’t like what you truly see, but there’s potential in the difference you could make in this world. Allow your perspective to change; you owe it to the world.

 

P.S. the person who has made the biggest impact on my life is my son Loveson, we celebrated his “birthday” (we won’t ever know his real birth date, so we celebrated his “got ya!” date) this past weekend. Look at what one year can do to a person!

 

first picture of Loveson when he came a year ago...and him with his first birthday cake a year later!

first picture of Loveson when he came a year ago…and him with his first birthday cake a year later!

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Loveson weighed 16 pounds and wore 18 month onesies when he first came…he’s doubled his body weight and has meat on his bones now!

 

God is good, even in the midst of hurt and turmoil.

Love from Haiti.